What I Did On My Summer 2014 Vacation

So what did I do on my summer vacation? Hint: It's one of these 3 choices:






a) I rode around in my gangsta whitewalls.

b) I listened to Pharell's "Happy" until I was farting smiley faces.

c) I wrote a letter to the cult leaders of Jehovah's Witnesses.

If you picked "a," dream on! I live in NYC and parking's a real bitch here. If you picked "b," honey, I don't need Pharell to make me fart smiley faces! If you picked "c," you'd be right, and I'll FedEx your cookie to you.

Now, I was kicked out of that cult back in 1997, but I recently met people who have just left. Man, I remember the days and weeks after I left. I felt like I stepped into an upside down world! I had NOBODY to talk to. So I withdrew. I chilled out and refocused. It's OK to do that when you're confused. Then, I got lots of therapy. That's OK too. There's a lot of information to process. I also made a ton of mistakes. Hey, there's nothing wrong with that either. As long as you own up to them, mistakes can be used as learning curves! Most importantly, I read a TON of books. Knowledge is your way to freedom.

I wrote a letter to the JW cult leaders to speak out not just on behalf of myself. I wrote it for those who are still in the cult and can't express themselves due to the horrible mind fuck they get three times a week. I also wrote it for the ones who were banished like me. We were cut off from friends and family simply because of some bullshit constructs the cult leaders create. They feed millions of people unfounded "Biblical" rules purely to control them.

 Anyway you slice it, it's mind control. It happens everywhere and people must become aware of it.

Rather than spend my whole post writing about it, I invite you to read my letter on my friend, Noel Parsons' Open Letters to Governing Body blog. Noel's my role model! She's brave, strong and dedicated to putting real truth out there. The JW cult leaders will probably harass her what she's doing, but she holds her own. I'm standing right next to her with my fist in the air along with thousands of other awesome people.

YEAH!

In the meantime, I leave you with this video from Mind Control Survivor, Cathy O'Brien given at a conference called, appropriately enough, Free Your Mind. For those of us who have gone through mind-control, whether it's trauma or cult-based, Cathy O'Brien offers solutions for how to deal with the horrors of trauma. Until then, be free my friends!

Leaving the world of the JDUBs

Getting to Know the JDubs 

Yep. I was one of them. Jehovah's Witnesses. Perhaps you met them on one hungover Saturday when they unexpectedly knocked on your door and you then sent them all to hell. To which, they might've responded by asking, "what makes you believe in a fiery hell?" Not the best way to start your weekend. 

I'd have to say, despite their annoying tactics, they come across as nice people. That is, until you wish them a Merry Christmas. Don't get them started on that, 'cuz they will get weird! One time, I witnessed--you do a lot of witnessing as a Jehovah's Witness--a JW beating up a Christmas tree! I wish I were kidding but it actually happened. I was friends with a woman who was married to a guy who wasn't a witness. The JW's words for non-witnesses are "worldly" or "unbeliever," used interchangeably. Anyhow, as we were out all day fishing for converts, he decided to put up his tree. Big one too. When we walked into the house, she was so flabbergasted at the tree that she started wailing at it. I remember seeing ornaments flying everywhere. The tree wasn't having it though. Those tree branches started wailing back and it turned into a real fight! I had 50 bucks on the tree. 

They should have cast Jehovah as the Grinch!

The point of that story, is to illustrate how seriously Jehovah's Witnesses get with their beliefs. After all, everything that they read from their literature is to be taken without question and as fact. Besides not celebrating any holidays--including one's own birthday, they also believe that accepting a blood transfusion is a huge no-no. It may seem random to an "unbeliever," but their belief is that either you practice "blood abstinence" or you'll die in a fiery Armageddon. They even have little cards that say "No Blood." Once I got into an accident in a rough neighborhood and they found my "No Blood" card, so they shipped me off to the Crips Hospital. Imagine my dismay. I look like a smurf with those Blue bandanas. 

Only Jehovah's Witnesses and anorexic vampires need apply

I lived a Jehovah's Witness life because, like every other member, I was conditioned to believe that sacrificing my life to this institution/publishing corporation is the key to salvation. My parents raised me in the cult so leaving at that time was not an option. Becoming a Jehovah's Witness means going to the Kingdom Hall, knocking on stranger's doors looking for converts and accepting the entire JW doctrine without question. One also has to accept that a small group little old men in upstate NY called the "Governing Body" is the mouthpiece of God. Their worst doctrine by far is their policy of shunning anyone who decides that the JW lifestyle is not a good fit for his life. Leaving the mob is easier than leaving the Jehovah's Witnesses! More and more former Jehovah's Witnesses are being vocal about this horrible practice. For example, former member Brenda Lee, who is a long time anti-cult activist tells her story about growing up as a Jehovah's Witness and the cruel way her family shunned her after she left. Check out her story at http://www.outofthecocoon.net/

                                                                               Leaving the Cult (Yes, it's a cult. Get over it!)

The Jehovah's Witnesses disfellowshipped me because I had committed a "serious sin." The leaders of the cult, called "elders" had a meeting with me to discuss my future and my fate. They found me to be "unrepentant," which simply meant that I was unwilling to stop living my life to its fullest instead of being a drone. Although it was rough at the time, I didn't realize how much freedom I had given myself! The Jehovah's Witness life was all I knew up until that point, so leaving meant that my life would drastically change. It was an intense experience--like the day I went to see that Michael Bolton concert. I wanted Michael to notice me so badly and he didn't. Life's just not fair. 

 

Oh, Michael Bolton. Why won't you notice me???

When the JW's kicked me out, I was totally shunned. None of my childhood friends could even so much as look at me--as if I were that ugly! Anyhow, there's a whole controversy about their disfellowshipping policy. The Jehovah's Witness leaders aren't what you may call, merciful people. I committed a "serious sin" and could therefore never associate with Witnesses again. I know of mass murderers who get off with a lighter sentence than me! Watch any episode of Orange is the New Black and you'll see what I mean! 

 

To shun or not to shun? 

Anyhow after leaving, I did what any other rational person would do, I donated bags of clothes to Goodwill. What the hell else was I gonna do a closet full of tacky clothes?

Nobody should have to go through an experience like that. It's a humiliating, degrading and a terribly sad experience--kinda like watching a Jennifer Lopez movie. 

 

Anaconda--When you can't breathe, you can't scream. That's getting shunned by JW

If anyone reading this needs help after leaving the Dubs because of the trauma of shunning, I will refer you to the sites listed below. Please know you're not alone. There are others out there who have gone through disfellowshipping and/or disassociating and have gone on to live happy, productive lives. We ex Dubs are more than happy to help :)

http://gayxjw.org/

http://www.silentlambs.org/

jwsurvey

http://watchthetower.net/

There's plenty more, but those are enough to get you started on your quest for a meaningful life post Jehovah's Witnesses.

Seinfeld, Zero and 7WTC

Am I the only one who hated watching Seinfeld? A show about nothing. Really? The show ran from '98-'89. Nine years of nothing and the dude's shitting money.
 

It's not that the show wasn't funny. It's that Jerry Seinfeld wasn't funny. Larry David wrote the scripts. He was funny. Jerry? Not so much.

There were other elements to the show that were just plain annoying. Like that Seinfeld-slap bass. Man! I hated that Seinfeld-slap bass! It's a laugh cue for the audience. We are not that stupid, Jerry. I laugh when I damn well please! Then there's Kramer. People went crazy for him, but that guy pisses me off! He never knocked on Jerry's door, ever! Lemme tell you something, I was raised in NYC and if any of my neighbors barged into my apartment like that I'd punch them in the throat! 

I remember one episode where Kramer bought a gyro on the subway platform at 42nd Street. Right. Now you KNOW, that has got to be the fakest NYC scene ever. I've been riding subways all my life--NOBODY sells gyros on the platform. That violates thousands of health regulations. But who cares, right? The show is about nothing. *plays slap bass*

                     He's not my boyfriend!

So what was Seinfeld's point anyway? According to him, nothing. Zero. But three years after his show ended, the Twin Towers were attacked. THAT did happen in NYC, unlike the make-believe gyros on the platform. Over and over the planes hit the towers on TV. I didn't watch TV that day. I was at WTC 7 starting my work day. The media christened the site "Ground Zero."  Zero's an interesting number. It's nothing, right? But it's also more than nothing. Any number you multiply by zero magically turns into zero. Any number divided by zero is undefined. Zero's an egg-shaped symbol--a seed if you like--which holds the potentiality of all subsequent manifestation. Now, that's power, baby! A seed was planted. A "nothing" seed. My Hero, Zero.

Anyway, the initial 9/11 fervor with all the flag waving and war mongering eventually died down. Now nothing seems to be happening again, just like Jerry said. That guy's definitely on to something. $800 million seems to suggest so. Look at all those fucking zeros in that bank account. See fo' yo-self!

The Original Fashionista, Jerry Seinfeld

Which brings me to Tower 7. Remember that tower? Nah, I didn't think so. It was completely omitted from the official report. Obfuscated. Tower 7 was shown free-falling unto itself on TV only once on 9/11/01 at 5:20pm. It wasn't shown falling repeatedly like the other two buildings were. I was there, at Ground Zero. Me--a "nothing" temp at Solomon Smith Barney at the 43rd Floor of Tower 7. But lemme tell you, I definitely saw some crazy shit go down. I felt some nasty energy in my body from the explosions, too. I still feel it sometimes.  

   Was it a controlled demolition? You decide.

Alright, still with me? Now it's time to take the "red pill." It's OK. I'll take you there and back again safe and sound.

Morpheus: This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.

Please allow me to share with you, a man who has completely blown my mind, Mark Passio. His work in the areas of metaphysics, occultism, spirituality, symbology and consciousness studies has allowed me to connect some serious dots. He shows, based on the magickal code of numbers called Gematria, that Flight 93 was more than likely headed straight for WTC 7. Straight for ME!

  
This hour long video is just a piece of his presentation. You gotta watch it in its entirety to really sink your teeth into his work

Mark explains the connections between 9/11 and dark magick much better than I ever could. I highly recommend visiting his website: What On Earth Is Happening.com. It will completely rearrange your DNA!

At around 10am that morning, Flight 93 crashed in a Pennsylvania field. Almost simultaneously in NYC, the South Tower (WTC2) had just fallen. About half an hour later, The North Tower (WTC1) fell. Tower 7 was still standing, but there were small fires all over the building. Me, and everyone else in that building survived because WTC7 was not hit by a plane. But let me show you how close I was to all of that craziness.

See Tower 7 at the top? That's where I was that morning. As you can imagine, we had a close view of the madness.

Later that day, upon hearing word that the fires at WTC7 couldn't be contained, Larry Silverstein, leaseholder of the entire World Trade Center site, decided to "pull" down--or demolish--Tower 7.

 

"Pull it (though it takes weeks to set up a demolition)"

WTC 7 disappears into itself just like the other towers, but was never hit by an airplane. It's like it was crushed by an invisible hand. Guess what, though? NONE (back to our friend zero) of this is mentioned in the 9/11 Commission (or omission) report! The building literally, figuratively and historically disappeared from public consciousness. At least that's what the powers that be who "investigated" the most important historical event of our generation would seem to want.  

One thing the official 9/11 investigators did show us by omitting Tower 7 is this (I'm peaking on that red pill now): seven divided by zero is undefined! The power of numbers, especially zero, cannot be underestimated!

Our friend Mark Passio, as well as other alternative researchers like Jake Kotze, compares the 3 Towers that fell on 9/11, to the 3 Pyramids in Giza. Both of these sites, each built with 3 structures, are each representations of Solomon's Temple where powerful magickal energy was raised (I'll briefly explain the Solomon's temple in a second). So basically, the horrible events we witnessed, looked at it in a metaphysical perspective, were a sacrificial ritual. Now you KNOW that shit is not in the 9/11 report!

 

Jake Kotze's short film about 9/11 ritual

WTF? You say. Hey, trust me I understand. When I first came across all of this information, I took it with a grain of salt. The important thing is to keep asking questions. The connections made, even if they seem far fetched and super weird, will at least get your mental gears grinding. And hey, if worse comes to worse, at least you went on a hell of a ride!

Still with me? Awesome!

Now, wait-a-minute--Solomon's Temple? Yeah! Over in Jerusalem there's this wall called the Wailing Wall where Jewish men go to pray. It's the last remaining wall of the ancient Holy Temple that Jewish King Solomon built centuries ago to honor God. In 70CE, the Romans crushed the temple and all that remains is the Wailing Wall. There's a bunch more history to Solomon's Temple, but we'll stop here for now.

As you can see, that structure is pretty sacred to the Jewish faith. And guess to which other group? If you guessed Freemasonry, then you win a cookie! Right Kramer? Oh yeah, you do know that Kramer a.k.a. Michael Richards is a Freemason, right? He'd tell you all about it but he took an oath to secrecy. Shhhh!

While I don't know for sure, I'll bet that pose has a symbolic meaning in the fraternity. Hand signs and handshakes are a big part of Freemasonry. Cosmo is definitely in the club. 

                              Sexy breast to breast action.

King Solomon's Temple symbolic meaning in Freemasonry. Red Pill Stuff for sure!

Now back to the Pyramid thing. Radio broadcaster Art Bell, host of the paranormal-themed Coast to Coast AM once said, "The Great Pyramid resists all efforts to comprehend how it was built, by whom and for what purpose." You got that right. Nobody really knows how those structures were created. All we have are a bunch of theories by "experts."

How did I get here?

Now, let's take Mark Passio's "Pyramids=WTC=Solomon's Temple" idea a step further by substituting WTC for the Pyramids in Art Bell's statement above and reversing the phrase. What we end up is with this: "The WTC (Great Pyramid) resists all efforts to comprehend how it was DESTROYED, by whom and for what purpose." Nobody really knows how those structures were destroyed. All we have are a bunch of theories by "experts." 

Again we have with the mystery of Zero and one hell of a mind fuck. Kinda like this: 

As my English professor used to say, "so what?" So the world changed after 9/11. SOMETHING did happen and CONTINUES happening today. Fuck anybody that tells you different. Seinfeld, the 9/11 investigators and the rest of mainstream media sold us nothing and that's exactly what we're left with if we choose to tune in to that aspect of zero. Hey man, participation's a part of your overall grade, remember? At least that's what they drilled us with in school. We can't just sit around in silence anymore. We gotta create our world. Jerry did it with nothing. I'm sure we, who try to look the truth in the face no matter how weird and scary it is (red pill is wearing off now), have much more relevant things to say. So speak your world! *slap bass plays*